okay. i have no idea why i'm still online when i keep yawning. this shows i'm tired. and needs to sleep. but i'm still browsing thru blogskins, searching for some really nice skins to change.

climbing today was kinda, not bad, i guess. i feel tired easily, and i dont know why. perhaps is coz i havent been hanging on the pull-up bar for 1minute or so for long. or maybe do some endurance routes. maybe coz i didnt have a full 24hR-rest before i climbed again.

yoshinoya for dinner with ckx, abby, kai the carebear, stella, jade and canice. den chipmunk-ed without canice, coz she had to go off. and they are so cute! i was tearing when they were singing.

and i dont know why i feel down easily ever since i come back. i keep listening to sad and slow songs to emo myself. and then, i'll start reminiscing about things. things i shouldnt think about. but still, they came back. memories are sometimes, sucky. whether it's good or bad, it's still sucky. sometimes you try so hard to keep yourself occupied, but they still come back and haunt you. i've told people to stop thinking. i mean, i always knew how it feels like to think about smthg you had before. somehow, i cant find the right words to phrase how i'm feeling.

nanny once told me: if the memories come back, just let it. but make sure you dont feel sad or anything after that. i needa get myself outta this sucky situation. it's been two days i'm feeling this way. maybe i should really stop thinking about everything. i shouldnt be thinking of it in the first place.

okay. xmas eve is on monday. driving, then dinner, and out with the girlies. it's gonna be a happy night.

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